1. |
Willoughby
03:49
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Nobody wants me back home
Nobody loves me at all
I will be dying alone
That same playground that we smoked our cigarettes on
Was the same one that we spent our lives as kids on
And when I say kids I mean little kids
Because we still are kids we haven't grown up yet
John and Nick got hooked Nick for a little bit
And to this day John swears that one day he'll quit
And I believe in him just like I always have
Because when we were 12 we did the things we said.
Nobody wants me back home
Nobody loves me at all
I will be dying alone
There was that one time Steve drove our old van into
The side of our old house there was nothing to do
Except to sit and laugh and think about how mad
Our fucking Mom would be when she made her way back
She was at Donna's house that's where she always was
I'm not complaining though it only helped our cause of
Sneaking out and finding out that the mall wasn't all it seemed to be.
Nobody wants me back home
Nobody loves me at all
I will be dying alone
Nobody wants us back home
Nobody loves us at all
We will be dying alone
Whoa whoa
Is there something wrong with me
Whoa whoa
There's nothing wrong with me
Whoa whoa
We had no place to be
Whoa whoa
I still got no place to be at all
Is there something wrong with me
Nobody wants us back home
Nobody loves us at all
We will be dying alone
My heads not straight and my throat it feels slit
I'll watch it fall right off and stomp the hell out of it
Cause I've gotten so tired I'm wired to fail
And my friends are the same my fucking friends are the same
These nights are long but they're keeping me from
All my awful dreams all my cynical thoughts
I'll break down in the front of an old parking lot
And get help when I'm gone
I'll get help when we're done
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2. |
Wooden Townhouse
03:02
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When you left all the evidence it was stacked against you
It's unannounced but I know the truth and it's hiding in my
Doubt that I will ever come to grips with your innocence
It's not my fault for bleeding on your floor
You'll clean it up with spite like you've done before
So go on
And I'll find my own way
(We're not avoiding the issue we're just avoiding to talk)
It doesn't matter anyway
And all the civil hours can be killed by a minute
That's consumed with slight annoyances from past inconsiderate
Choices I made
I'm sorry
So go on
And I'll find my own way
(We're not avoiding the issue we're just avoiding to talk)
(This was never an issue not at all)
You've been gone
It's been fine for me
(This was never an issue it doesn't matter to me anyway)
It's not me
It's not you
Your mistakes are yours to dwell on
It's no excuse to look down on me
I'm just the product of a halfway loving Father with too much pride
So go on
And go your own way
Distant from me
Stay distant from me
You've been gone
You keep a part of me
(It's not me it's not you)
I hate me and I blame you
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3. |
Threat Level Midnight
03:26
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And I woke up
Feeling alone cause
You've been gone for the past month
I've been waking up late hardly making the pay that I need
Just to go on
(These past few months I've been bumming around)
Paying bills that I don't want
(I'm fucking jobless and I'm sick of it now)
And on top of that save up
(Counting on friends who can never be found)
For a piece of machinery older than me
(They never mattered much)
All the things I did (leading up to this)
They follow me (they were no different)
All the years I spent (they won't amount to shit)
It's taken so long
To force myself to face issues
I just can't fix them all overnight
I could be wrong
It''ll get better (I'm better) it's better
I got tired of missing the childhood stuff
(I woke up)
Like having the pressure of missing the bus
(I'm still messed up)
And it hurts to say now but we all must grow up
(It never ends)
We fuck up you're not right I'm not right
(It never ends)
Can we get over it
All the things I did (leading up to this)
They follow me (they were no different)
All the years I spent (they won't amount to shit)
It's taken so long
To force myself to face issues
I just can't fix them all overnight
I could be wrong
It''ll get better I'm better it's better
But I can't even scratch the surface on where to go
It hurts my brain too much to think for a long time so
I don't even care if I wake up at all
I don't even care if I wake up
I've been breaking my back for so long
I'm past that point with everything again
I've been breaking my back for so long
I keep breaking in half come on break me in half
(I've been breaking my back for so long)
Break me in half won't you break me just break me
(I've been breaking my back for so long)
I know it won't get better at all and I'm so fed up with it
So fuck you all just get away from me for now
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4. |
King Of The Ring
04:28
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Appalled by all the faces that
Have shown themselves through places that
I have been forced to learn to love
Then torn from and soon carried off
Aside from the few things I said
To friends who never gave a shit
I let my head defeat my chest
It didn't die, it just went blind and deaf
(I know) I've been locked up in my room for far too
(Long) Staring holes through all the posters on the
(Walls and I) can't even try, to tell myself that I was right
(I'm sick of me) and everything
Self medicate until it goes away
So I think back to being in
A place that men have wrecked with sin
Something my parents lied about
And nurtured women die without
And that's partially my fault for not speaking up
I'm sick from doubting my guts
So now I'm puking them up
(I know) I've been locked up in my room for far too
(Long) Staring holes through all the posters on the
(Walls and I) can't even try, to tell myself that I was right
(I'm sick of me) and everything
Self medicate until it goes away
Oh yeah.
Alright.
No.
Black holes in my chest where my heart used to be
They reflect nothing cause nothing is loving towards me
There's also no one, who's always there to sing me to sleep
So with my judgement impaired, I just sit and I stare
And think how all could be better if I just rid the Earth
Of my useless existence, my meaningless birth
And so I reach for some pills as the sun hits my bed
But mid-reach I get lazy and wind up falling asleep instead
I don't want to die.
I need to die.
Anymore.
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5. |
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I found out (I found out)
It's not even killing me
(You're exactly who I thought that you'd be)
I wish I would've spiked your drink with bleach
(So you could come clean)
Or give up the ghost you're not so haunting
(You'll take lies to your grave)
At an early age (I hope it's at an early age)
I'll be counting the days (until I know that we don't share the same air)
(Cause every word you spoke to me was a waste of it)
2 years until I realized you were full of shit
All that I ask of you
(Is to burn through memories of us with)
Nights that you can't get through
(When we're both bitter towards this we'll both be better off)
I give up (I gave in)
Every curve is killing me
(I need a meaningless and lustful release)
Let's lock the door behind our contradicting feelings
(So we can come clean)
Give it up to me give it to me
(We'll take lies to our graves) At an early age bet it's at an early age
(But 27 minutes pass and so does mutuality)
All that I ask of you
(Is to burn through memories of us with)
Nights that you can't get through
(When we're both bitter towards this we'll both be better off)
All that I want from you
(Is to burn through memories of us with)
Nights that we both can do
(When we're both bitter towards this we'll both be better off)
(I've been bitter towards this I've been better off)
(Alright)
All that I want from you
All that I ask of you
(Is to burn through memories of us with)
Nights that you can't get through
(When we're both bitter towards this we'll both be better off)
All that I want from you
(Is to burn through memories of us with)
Nights that we both can do
(When we're both bitter towards this we'll both be better off)
(I've been bitter towards this I've been better off)
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6. |
Lantern Park
04:25
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And it's overcast in the back of this van
Mental photographs are flooding my head
So I strike a match and set fire to my brain
Just to burn away every image of you
And that's only cause I know it's what you want me to do
But still I'm stuck I dwell in your ashy remains
I'm homeless loveless and so sick of both of those things
I'll stop following you all the way home
I won't sleep at all
So I rid myself of my former crutch
And then realized I never really liked it that much
But still there's you bewitching in all that you do
I'm enthralled by every move that you make
Plus your interests and tastes captivate me relate to me
Please fornicate with me
You are the only one I want to share my body with
So love me please just love me like you once did
I'll stop following you all the way home
I won't sleep at all
I kept our picture up in my living room
I kept our picture up in my Dad's living room
And wore my glasses my old wire glasses
And glanced past the cracks in the frame that contained what we were
You took my picture down from your living room
You took my picture down from your Mom's living room
And that's expected I'm not that upset
It just hurts me to know that you no longer long for me
No I won't follow you
But you followed me
Right into my dreams it kills me every day I breathe
(Ladadadada Ladada)
I wish you missed these hands
Along the small of your back when we'd be lying in bed
(Ladadadada Ladada)
I wish you missed these lips
I finally wrote you a song I hope you know that you're missed
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7. |
Graphic Novel(s)
03:38
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There's a sense of attachment with my spot on Jake's floor
Until I pick up my shit and I walk out the door
To go lay on a couch and ignore how I know everything
(Is dead)
But I've been drinking so much it isn't hard to forget
I'm the "asshole with asthma" sucking down cigarettes
Welcoming early death
And the "in betweens" are short reminders
Of drives we used to take god damn it
(I watched you walk away)
I just sat outside and chewed up my fingers until you
(Told me stay away)
It hurt me so bad but you said it much nicer than that
(That for me) was all I heard for
(Weeks on end) it's a never ending noise
(That left me) indifferent towards
(Everything) I've ever known
I watched you walk away
There's overwhelming resentment towards the choices I've made
And it's helping me to forget the names of the days
Until the calendar books just a page that I covered up
With arguments (I'm in no place to use)
And past tenses (From days of me and you)
All presented (in an ink that) bleeds right through
But your words were chosen well
Yeah I couldn't say it better myself
Yeah your words were chosen well
And mine just helped to build myself a fucking private hell
(I let you walk away)
I just sat inside and stared at the floor thinking of
(Words I didn't say)
It made me so mad cause I couldn't blame you for that
(That for me) was all I saw for
(Weeks on end) it's a never ending scene
(That left me) indifferent towards
(Everything) and everyone I know
That for me was all I heard for
Weeks on end it's a never ending noise
That left me indifferent towards
Everything I've ever known and
(I don't hate you)
That for me was all I saw for
(I don't blame you)
Weeks on end it's a never ending scene
(I don't hate you)
That left me indifferent towards
(I don't blame you)
Everything and everyone
(I watched you walk away)
And all things aside I'll swallow my pride I know
(I let you walk away)
You'll go your own way I'll sit and self loath with loneliness
(I'm alone)
Alone with loneliness
I watched you walk away
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I've counted the miles, it isn't so bad
(But any stale thought could rot its way in your head)
Sometimes I feel like
(She knows you better than you know yourself, I get it)
But this one's different
(Yeah I know)
It's just not that simple
(But I've heard it before)
(And all due respect, you cover up your fear of loneliness)
I just needed the sound of a voice
Why can't I just get by?
(Well you can't get by with a)
(Ghost)
Commitment, at best, was my worst idea yet
(You throw yourself through slightly open doors and then you're stuck)
How would you know
(I saw it not too long ago, you broke in and just walked off)
(And I've made my own mistakes)
And here's the thing, since you've settled down are you settling?
(I think that I know my mistakes)
She's just not like everyone
You just don't know everything
I was trying to drown out the noise
I just wanted to feel alive
(You'll never feel alive from a)
(Ghost)
If you don't listen you could never get it
You don't listen so you just don't get it
(Fuck you, fuck you, you can't tell me you're not full of shit)
Shit
(If she's what helps you sleep, and 3 AM phone calls are what you need
to help you get, through everyday that you breathe, and feel so stretched thin that your organs are out on the floor again)
It's not like there is certainty (in every dream that) I depict of her, masturbation is a curse
I guess we'll have to wait and see, until then
(All that we can say is fuck it)
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9. |
Ex- Friends
03:32
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So place your methods in my brain
And kill me slow for 2 years straight
But I've had it with your habits
They're not habitual for me
60 days were spent no arguments
And that meant nothing
Cause in the largest city I said it all
All you are is just skin and bones
(Yeah you're just like me but you're never wrong)
We both bleed the same
The only difference is alcohol has replaced all your blood
It starts to stain right through your veins
And I can't say that I'm the same as I was yesterday
But you're all dressed up and it's overrated
You're still fucked up and I fucking hate it now
Go home alone just ignore those
(Nobody gets it nobodies let in nobody knows)
Better days caught on tape you fast forward
(Is this what we set out to do from the beach house never at all)
Through those dumb jokes you were older
(Don't bother to talk I don't want to be told what you think that you know)
I can't be anything that you need
(Nobody gets it nobodies let in so come on just)
Go home alone
Just forget my name (forget my face)
It's funny how you shift your shape
From an unnoticed entrance (to emergency exits)
It shines a light that burns a hole through those who didn't know
(I didn't know)
And honestly you promised me
Things would never ever change
But all your friends are dead because you don't treat us like friends
All you are is just skin and bones
(Yeah you're just like me but you're never wrong)
We both bleed the same
The only difference is alcohol has replaced all your blood
It starts to stain right through your veins
(You're vainly choking on your words)
And it's a shame that I can't say
That I'm the same as I was yesterday
But you're all dressed up and it's overrated
You're still fucked up and I fucking hate
The way we used to say we were the same
You're not the same as me
Cause you're a tongue tied (coward)
You can't move (forward) at all
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10. |
Cold Bones
04:18
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Get me the fuck out of Florida
Get me back to that parking lot
Let me dwell in my run off thoughts
I'd be better off but not anywhere
I need wet feet and harsher air
Divorced Mothers and bedrooms where I can lay my head
And the fact that I had even tried
To change myself erase myself from stories that I wrote
(Led to fictional)
Traits to fit a state that I know
Was opposite but possibly home
But this place isn't home
Give me back shitty train tracks and
Stolen cigarettes shared with friends
School yard fights and the understanding
From parents that were misunderstood
Despite their efforts of doing good
I miss the dead grass and broken wood
That surrounded the whole
House that I would come to find
Would represent the first that I made and truly loved
(It's not enough to)
Change what's in the back of my mind
Despite the things that I've grown to like
And I know it's easier here to get by on my own
But I'd rather be in a hole at home
And this place isn't home
You can't take the cold out of my bones
When they're brittle and they're old
They'll break and fall like snow
Thick and heavily stick to a Long Island street until
(I'm swept away)
Decaying and waiting for
3 months of growth to force new times to come
(But for now I'm just)
Burning every inch of my skin
(Cold)
Waiting for the summer to end
(Bones)
And I'm not naive to the fact that the choice is my own
Just right now I found something to grow
But this place isn't home
Cold bones.
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